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Ian C Smith – 3 poems

Germaine Greer at Heathrow

 

 

Imagine a painting in the style of Jeffrey Smart,

a bare airport terminal, a well-known woman.

Compositionally, the woman stands near the edge

as do Smart’s figures/friends in some pictures.

Space, stillness, surrounds her in a banal setting,

a desolate reminder of de Chirico, Hopper,

stark emptiness, their echoic sense of regret.

 

Barely the breakfast hour, the jetlagged scarpered,

I watch bags, my partner changing money,

lean against a pillar, focus on a lone woman

who looks sad across all that emptied space

as though disappointed a dear face hadn’t shown.

She smokes, or she doesn’t, looks straight at me.

 

I once read The Female Eunuch among books forgotten,

the only bloke taking a course on feminism,

admired Greer’s chutzpah, knew she lived in England

where I came to dwell on the edge of belonging.

I mourn unplanned lives, mine, others’, back stories,

each of us carrying private clouds of sadness.

What happened next, that distant dawn?

 

Photoshop the picture.  Now see two figures.

A man with luggage, that woman.

So much space, possibility.  Time stilled.

He tells her, imagine, about a book he liked. 

 

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Helplessness

 

 

I avoid questions, paths to thickets of speculation.

Edgy at a book launch I talk to a couple I know,

showing off a bit about my grown sons.

The sons’ mother and her mate wrote the book.

Ever the jolly jester I repeat myself telling tales

including one about our third son’s success

buying aviator sunnies for a song online

then selling them for a clever profit at school.

 

Driving home I think of our frailty here on Earth,

wonder why I play-act boasting of shallow deeds.

Later, the boys’ mother calls in with dilatory news,

an accident involving our drunken sons.

Our ex-sunglasses salesboy totalled his car,

wrapping a tree, his brother in hospital.

Police woke their mother hours before her launch.

She recently endured surgery, her mate is dying.

 

I know she shields us, me from their excesses,

them from her sense of my disapproval,

but exclusion unmoors me, my vista uncertain.

A relic of survival, I reprise the larrikin joker,

recall days drunk, the carnival ride of youth,

for her sake, to patch cracks become chasms. 

 

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The Shock of the News

 

 

Visiting a married pal who spoke like a movie gangster,

the old neighbourhood, a skull on a chain round my neck,

toddlers in pyjamas, his teenage sister also visiting,

the semiotics of domestic warmth that stave off emptiness.

Something strange about the sister, manic, flirting,

with me awkward in front of her brother, my girlfriend.

 

We moved, lost touch in the battering buzz of life.

Married to my girlfriend I made my own toddlers.

Like that friendship our union didn’t last forever.

Wails of distress.  Wild creatures. Outrageous drama.

I had found someone.  Looking back, shame lingered.

We survived but some are crushed, hounded by sadness.

 

That visit slipping towards the abyss of forgetting,

I read of a killing, a hullabaloo at a party.

Shock.  Also a prescient feeling, but mostly shock.

Outraged, a man I once knew aimed a .22 rifle at his sister.

She had been flirting wildly – no surprise there.

He threatened.  She taunted him to go ahead.

 

Pleading posturing gone awry he got off lightly.

Was it unintentional in the end?  Who knows?

His finger only had to crook a little more.

Thinking back on this, how unreal it all seems.

Yet, the shock then, reading of one insane moment.

His claw on the trigger, trembling.  Echoes. 

 

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Ian C Smith’s work has appeared in Antipodes, Australian Book Review, Australian Poetry Journal,  Critical Survey,  Poetry Salzburg Review,  The Stony Thursday Book, & Two-Thirds North.  His seventh book is wonder sadness madness joy, Ginninderra (Port Adelaide).  He lives in the Gippsland Lakes area of Victoria, Australia.

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